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Losing my way
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Aug 19, 2007 10:19 am
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I had lots fun in Korea and also fell in love again.well, I dont know if I actually call it love but I really fell.
I met him in a club( I know it is not a good place to meet people) He is the DJ. At that time he really stood out.
anyways we kinda started dating after first met. I had a crush on him; not sure about him. I tried to control my feeling but it is really hard. I kinda know he is as player ( even he said he is not) but I still let myself fall. Now that he is telling me we should just be friends. I said fine but it really hurts. feel like a knife is cuttiing me into pieces; but what can I do. I picked to play then I got pay the price.
anyways, I should have be smarter next time.
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Again?
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Aug 9, 2007 10:45 am
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It was stupid of me sending my ex an email. well, I guess I still care a lot about him. to my suprise he actually replied. Reading his reply, I was totally lost. we lost contact long time ago, he started first. I thought I would never get back from him again.
well, he told me it was very hard for me to not reach me cuz he was so in love; now that he is thinking of getting back to me again. I dont get it; what is he thinking? It was hard for him; not it is gonna be easy for me? how come he neer think about others? I was so heartbroken. not that I am getting a bit better, he is bqack again. what am I gonna do? Seriously, if you think it doesn't hurt , think again.
wat am i suppoemto do? why do u do this? Do you know how much it hurts when u just left ?
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exploring Korea
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Jul 12, 2007 7:36 am
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i got lost today in the subway; but that was fun. I was almost came to a point to take a cab but I figured I'd learn how to take the subway no matter what. so i asked with my horrible Korean and found my direction. there me go, i got back home. hahaha I am happy...
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hmmm, korea
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Jun 22, 2007 3:42 pm
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well,my first day in korea was really really tough. I spoke nothing and i need something urgent. but it is all good. i mean it really is a good and new experience. there is this girl on my same floor; she helped me a lot. she is such a sweetheart. well,hopefully everything goes well.
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addicted
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Jun 8, 2007 6:06 pm
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I figured you could possibly get a ddicted to clubbing. Well, that is exactly what is happening to me. I dont know. I mean I am not a clubber. but it really feels good to be in that atomsphere. Well, I dont even drink when I go clubbing but I love to dance.
Anyways, I am bored again; well, haha, the fact is all my friends are pretty much gone for the summer. But good thing is I am leaving soon too. yahoo!!
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Bored and sick.
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Jun 6, 2007 6:52 pm
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hmmm, Edmonton is really boring; espically in the summer; everybody is gone everywhere. Well, nice that we get a bit of rain today. it is been really dry and warm. Well, I cannot wait till end of June. Get packed and fly to NYC.
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I declare
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Jun 5, 2007 9:35 pm
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I logged on this D.com thing; which is totally cool and I registered as Woman interested in Woman. Well, I got replies. There we go, that is where the real story is gonna get started.
I am so fu--ing disapointed at guys. First thing they see a hot chick is how to get into her pants. that is not too nice. I am like WTF is that?
So I declare, if u r that type, leave me alone.
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Listen
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Jun 4, 2007 12:02 am
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Listen,
To the song here in my heart
A melody I've start
But can't complete
Listen, to the sound from deep within
It's only beginning
To find release
Oh,
the time has come
for my dreams to be heard
They will not be pushed aside and turned
Into your own
all cause you won't
Listen....
Listen,
I am alone at a crossroads
I'm not at home, in my own home
And I tried and tried
To say whats on my mind
You should have known
Oh,
Now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what, you made of me
I followed the voice
you gave to me
But now I gotta find, my own..
You should have listened
There is someone here inside
Someone I'd thought had died
So long ago
Ohh I'm free now and my dreams to be heard
They will not be pushed aside or worse
Into your own
All cause you won't
Listen...
I don't know where I belong
But I'll be moving on
If you don't....
If you won't....
LISTEN!!!...
To the song here in my heart
A melody I've start
But I will complete
Oh,
Now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what, you made of me
I followed the voice, you think you gave to me
But now I gotta find, my own..
my own...
ps. this song is more a song for me. My life hasnt been the same since he appeared. he gave me hope but now he is gone.
I look all the path I walked; I couldnt believe that is me. I cried over but so what.
I lost my trust in guys. They get what they need; they abandand you like ...
what life really is about, I wonder.
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I tried
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May 30, 2007 8:52 pm
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I tried so hard, can't seem to get away from misery,
Man I tried so hard, but always be a victim of these streets,
It Ain't my fault cause I, try to get away but trouble follows me,
And still I try so hard, hopin one day they'll come and rescue me,
But until then, I'll be posted up right here rain, sleet, hail, snow
But until then, I'll be posted up right here with my heat gettin dough
And I come from the darkside, so I'm havin a hard time stayin on track man,
My mind be racin', and I don't even know what I'm chasin yet
Been in and out of relationships, I'm startin to see that it's me where the complications at
But I'm layin back, prayin' that, you get that piece of mind of me
I thought I was right, but really I'm wrong, but again I was too blind to see,
I was in the fast lane chasin my dream,
And then it seemed when the fame and cash came, they just got me,
Goin crazyyyy, (lately, lately) lately I been so faded trying to erase it,
But I just can't cause the drama just grows greater,
And I been in so many collisions by puttin shit off till later.
It's like I'm takin five steps forward, and ten steps back
Tryna get ahead of the game but I can't seem to get it on track
And I keep runnin away the ones that say they love me the most
How could I create the distance when it's supposed to be close? And uh,
I just don't know but I be out here fightin demons and
It's like the curse that I can't shake this part of Cleveland and
Lord, would you help me? And stop this pain
I keep inflinctin on my family (family)
Hustlin and gamblin, drinkin' and scramblin'
And losin sight of what I supposed to be handlin'
It's hard to manage cause every days a challenge and man
And I'm slippin can't lose my balance and tryin not to panic
I see things won't change (wont change) I'm stuck in the game
As soon as I get out it keeps pullin me back man (pullin me back man)
Got me doin' dirty dirt, so used to this hustlin money,
That I don't understand no nine to five work
Studied on the streets, hustlas know what I mean
Thugstas ballin' before us I'm tryna make that major league
So we never leave never till the sun came up (came up)
Gotta get it nope, no leavin, no grudge (no grudge) today games they play gotta go hard to get what you put in, if you fall off then its all on you (on you) gotta watch what you sign too, try so hard but I won't act a fool.
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long time no see
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May 27, 2007 11:27 pm
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it is been a long time that I have been on this thing. Well, life hasnt been easy for me. Super busy at work and my family too. but it is all good. I guess it is time for me to seattle down a bit and do what i have to do instead of hanging around.
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