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wow, that is scary
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Apr 4, 2007 6:38 am
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I met an incredible girl last night. I have never met such r--- person ever in my life. Anyways, one good thing, my sister-in-law is not that kind, she is such a big cintract to her and such a sweetheart.
Now I am kinda scared to go to Korea even. Hopefully girls not like my sister-in-law not the other way around. Well, I understand there are always balck and white, everybod is different but still, get a bit chill.
Anyways don't mean anything, just saying it.
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memory
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Mar 24, 2007 9:31 pm
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I am so tired of being here;
suprised by all my childish feelings;
if you have to leave I wish you will just leave.
your presence is still in here;
and they won;t leave me alone;
the wound is just not healing;
You cried I wiped away your tears;
you creamed I fighted awasy all your fears;
I held your hands all through this year;
and they are still in me...
Now I am bound by al the memories;
your voice is not fading aways;
this pain is just too real;
there is just too much that I cannot earse;
You still here wtih me;
I am try to hard to tell myself you are gone;
but though you are still with me;
I have been alone along this way...
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Wow, busy week!
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Mar 22, 2007 8:59 pm
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This weekhas been really busy for me. But good thing that I am finishing up my paper. Two close friends asked me out for drink Saturday. That is gonna be fun, except I a realy bad, someone is gonna carry me home, haha! Well, I haven't been clubing for a long time, kinda excited to go. em, what else? I am going to states,visiting my oppa late June before I leave for Korea; that is gonna be cool, havn't seen him for three years. Also get a chance to see my father, sigh, hope he won't be too harsh on me this time.
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The woman downstairs
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Mar 15, 2007 8:53 pm
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"Recall from the memory, I could still feel the pain!
My heart is sobbing; I had it but lost it..."
I don't usually see this woman around. She has beautiful long hair all up to her shoulders. Whenever I saw her passing by; she always waks very fast silently. I could hear her singing sometimes at night. I try to read her mind.
" I loved you and cannot forget you, how can I do, what should I do?"
I was the first one talking to her. Later in the day my friend asked me why I talked to such a werido. I heard she was never married but is a lover to a guy. I thought that is really sad. I know she is singing but also crying, from her button of heart. She repeats the song every night.
I finally see her man the first time. I cannot really see his face, but could feel that her tears dropping. Is she happier then?
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I will try!
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Mar 13, 2007 3:09 pm
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I went to talk to my favorite prof today; I need some direction, feeling lost. I told him that I really don't like pharmacy and I wanna switch to something that I am interested in,such as acturiral sciences. He said go for it. That was really encouraging; however doesn't help a lot.
I know no matter how many people I ask for help it will be the same. If I cannot cheer up and walk through this myself, no one could do anything else to help.
I feel I am such a chicken; I worry too much and never actually had enough confidient. I cry a lot at night;l but I have never let anyone known. All my friends said I am such a cheerful and funny person to be with; I tried to hide all my sadness and fear behind.
I understand the how crule it could be. I am scared even to move one step forward. Since I left home 5 years ago,I knew there was no backups for me already. I have been depressed and stressed for a while.
He asked me if I ever wanna go back Japan or states to see my parents. I said no. I miss them so much but I am afraid to go. My mum has put so much expectation on me that I cannot handle any more but I cannot tell her cuz we have never actually had a close relationship. I am always a good ans sweet girl in her heart. I don't and will never tell her what had happened to me.
i stood up by my own 7 years ago. I hope i could still be strong.
Life is tough for me; it is for everyone, isn't it?
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New day
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Mar 12, 2007 2:27 pm
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It is mach already but it is snowing in Edmonton.
Well, hope spring will come soon. I seem to get too excited about my summr visiting to Korea. My friend brought me to a Korean church last sunday; I had fun.
I have been asking around if I am a fattie in Korea, cuz I have heard a lot that everyoneis skinny. Feel so silly haha!
John called me like crazy today; I know he wants my lab. I hve told him to do it ahead of time; he never listens. Sigh!
I have been really stressed recently; I decied to go for a massage. It helps. wow, at least I am able to sleep again at night. hehe
I called Simon( my brother) last night. his wedding is gonna be in October; sweet. It is always good to go to weddings.I am jealous now,hehe.
Anyways, tomorrow is another day.
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hurt
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Mar 8, 2007 9:54 pm
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Is there anyone try to find me? I want someone to take me home...
It seemed like it was yesterday when I saw your face;
You told me how pround you are but I walked away;
I would hold you in my arms; I will take the pain away;
Thanks you for what you have done;
I am sorry for blaming youfor everything that I just couldn't do;
Someday I feel open inside;
sometimes I just won't have that strength to say goodbye;
Would you tell me that I was wrong ;
whould help me to understand when you look into my eyes;
There is nothing I couldn't do to just have one more chance to look back in your eyes;
If I had just one more day;
I will tell you how much I missed yousince you have been aways;
I tried to turn back;
I am sorry for blaming you for everything that I just couldn't do;
and I had myself hurting you...
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stressed and pissed off
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Mar 5, 2007 6:44 pm
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ah so much to do. Get a new passport, visa and study permit.papers and exams coming too. Sigh! so much to do and so pissed off.
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The Passion of the Christ
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Mar 2, 2007 5:16 pm
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The movie, Passion of the Christ, directed by Mel Gibson, follows the last twelve hours of Christ, from his betrayal by Judas to his condemnation by a reluctant Pontius Pilates. The film focuses on the passion, in another word, sufferings, of Christ of his final day of life. His sufferings were depicted in the scenes of torture and a long bloody crawl through Jerusalem up to the craggy mountaintop where he was crucified. The language in the movie is the one that they would actually have spoken at the time, that is, Aramaic, for Jewish characters, including Jesus and his disciples. I was deeply moved by the film; it made the sufferings of Christ more brutal, more real, more powerful and more vivid.
As the title does, the movie explores the Passion of Jesus Christ. Meanwhile, evidence of “tolerance, love and forgiveness” is communicated in this movie. The movie opens with the scene that Jesus praying in the garden of Gethsemane; he prayed to the Heavenly Father that if possible not let him go through this, yet he would obey the Father’s will and fulfill his mission on earth. As Judas betrayed Jesus for thirty silver pieces to the Jewish High priest, he then led the guards to identify Jesus, and when they saw Jesus, he greets Jesus with the kiss that betrays him. Even at his last minute, Jesus still remembered his task as he told the thief who was also ordered death that he would be in heaven with God because of his repentances and would have eternal life. Jesus completed his mission by crucified on the cross; he yelled to heaven, forgiving the people as they had no aware of what they had done. The film, focuses on the torture and humiliation of Jesus, first at his disciples, then at the hands of people of Galilee, and finally at the hands of the Roman soldiers. Jesus endures beating after beating in a relentless display of masochism. The vivid scenes made us walking through Jesus’ last day of life together with him. Though the film is being criticized of too much violence and blood, Gibson explains that there is a purpose for the violence, to show the enormity of Christ pain. The audience is there to experience the harsh reality to understand it; at the same time, “when you finally see it and understand what He went through, it makes you feel not only compassion, but also a debt. You want to repay Him for the enormity of His sacrifice” as Gibson stated.
It is not just a movie, but the real story that Jesus had gone through. I was brought up with the picture of a calm and peaceful Christ hanging on the cross and I never could take this sacrifice seriously. It didn’t seem painful, did it? Crucifixion had been around a while by the time of Jesus, but the Romans had it down to an art of pain and torture. This movie gives us a very good visual reference. It is also a wake-up call and a reminder to all of us of the total price paid for the salvation.
I was reading a book earlier about Jesus and his death. It said that Jesus was beaten so much that no one, even the closest ones to him could recognize him. His skin was ripped open and his insides were revealed. Then while he hung on the cross, flies and gnats would fly all over the open skin. Jesus was also hung on the cross naked and could have urinated or defecated up there. As mentioned by others, there were other brutalities not shown in the film including having a cloth thrown over his head and repeatedly punched in the face. Under such circumstances, split lips, broken nose, fractured cheek, swollen eyes would be expected. This may explain why, after His post resurrection appearances; even His friends didn't recognize Him. The price of our redemption wasn't cheap. The debated violence is a way of getting closer to the sacrifice and to understand the strength in it and to realize what is so powerful with the resurrection. Now that I feel I could really understand John 3:16 :
“For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life”.
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Sleepless
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Mar 1, 2007 12:09 am
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I am totally sleepless today again. I have no idea what is going on. Hope I could get rid of this situation soon.
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