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I have renamed my blog as PILLS.This is because ' PILLS ' or the medication that i have been taking have a ' central role ' to play in my life.They 'control ' my behaviour and they decide my happiness / success / failure in love / relation / job almost every aspect of life.I can also lead a normal life if my medication works effectively which can otherwise be a hell for sure.I have reconciled to the fact that my life is 'Uncertain' as there is no firm cure for my illness and it is not always necessary that the medication works effectively and the disorder resurfaces.

The choice of my id 'Brainteaser' is in itself in relation to my illness and disorder.

Lately i have chosen to open up share my innermost secrets.

I am lucky to have such people here with whom i am sharing the darkest secrets of my life.I hope they will understand and if possible avoid ignoring me.

Noone's

bt
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Flirting with my maid - I hurt my own concience ! Jan 4, 2009 11:26 pm
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I stay alone most part of the year.My new maid started a few days back.I was trying to flirt with her.She is a very nice and a sensible woman and i think she had given me the indication that it was wrong.The fact is that i wanted to seduce her.But then it was all her sweet will and there was no compulsion except from her own poverty.Plus so far i did not do anything more than mer flirting with her.

I stay alone for most of the year.I am young and i have natural biochemical and physical requirements.To the best of my knowledge all men have it and most men act like this only when they are alone.But here i have chosen to express and regret this.
Two days have passed and she has stopped coming for work.

She is a very poor woman and she is already living in very dilapidated conditions.She has a lovely daughter of my daughter's age and i love her too.

I never wish to hurt anyone like this and i feel very bad about this.Since my biochemical and natural physical thirst will continue as ever i am thinking to stop this maid biz and in future do all my very little chores by myself.

But first of all i will go to her home , meet her , express my regrets and give her money for two months (14 USD )even though she worked for 2 days only.
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Visit to Taj Mahal - The monument of Love. Jan 4, 2009 5:27 am
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Visited Taj Mahal a few days back.My wife and my daughter accompanied me.I had seen taj in the pics earlier but when i saw it with my eyes it was really amazingly beautiful and an unparalleled wonder.

Moghul emperor ' Shah Jahan ' Loved his wife ' Queen Mumtaz Mehal ' very much and he constructed this tomb in loving memory of his beloved queen.It took 22 years to construct this 240 feet tall wonder on the banks of river yamuna in Agra in India.Taj is completely made of white marble with gems and precious stones exquisitely engraved in it.It was constructed about 400 years back and trust me i think we can't achieve the level of perfection and beauty even today despite all the technological advancement.

It is the only monument of its kind in world which is a symbol of love.After his death emperor ' Shah Jehan' was also buried in the tomb next to Mumtaz Mehal's grave as per his wish.

Taj is just adjasent to the Agra Fort of the Moghuls ; from where they ruled the whole of India.When shah jehan became old he could not see the Taj from his window ; due to weakened eyesight.His daughter , princess Jehan Ara gifted him a miror and till his last times the emperor used to watch the image of taj in this mirror.

Since all men can't construct such wonders in memory of their loved ones ; they pose in front of it with their beloved ones and take pics with Taj in the background.But nevertheless this does not mean that their love for their beloved is in anyway less as compared to the love for the emperor for his beloved queen.
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The basic quest - Who am I ? Jan 3, 2009 8:14 am
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who am i ? well i am not my body for it is born from earthly matters and it mixes back to the earth.

where did i come from ? ie my origin ?

where will i finally go ie after my death ?

And above all what is the purpose of my life ?

I personally feel that we all have these basic questions with us but no one knows the answers.

I may be wrong but i am of the opinion that the existing religions are also not able to resolve these queries as different religions are giving different versions and mores-over there has been more bloodshed than love in the name of religions.
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The most fabulous of KFF - My Perception. Dec 28, 2008 4:22 am
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To be honest i like almost all kff members ( including the ones that have me on ignore permanently ) and thats what has kept me here even after about one year of leaving Korea but some members here have drawn my special attention and appreciation.
1) Jamiexoxo
2) Korn
The reason for liking them is their following qualities
1) Tolerance
2) Patience
3) Maturity
4) Understanding
5) Intelligence
6) Compassion
7) Humor
Cute n Sexy
9) Sportive
10)Attitude
Especially Jamie has been extremely patient and tolerant towards me even though i think that many times i may have annoyed her but she has never ignored me and she's always been very sportive.
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Do women at KFF lie about their age ? Dec 24, 2008 2:46 am
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I have been here at kff for about 2 years now.I got kicked off perhaps 3rice ( probably due to a KFF reaction to the seritonium imbalance in my brain )and i changed my id 3ice before i finally became immune to being kicked off.

Based on my experience with KFF and also interaction with other kff members i have reached to a conclusion that women here are older than what they have mentioned in their profiles.Seems that they do this little finetuning to relive their youth.Some also give the logic that they are older but they look younger actually.

Many women are also using their older pics to relive their youth.

Most risky in this is the age group from 35 to 45.

I propose the following formula for working out the actual age of a woman at KFF ;-

Actuall age of KFF female member ;-

= Profile age x ( Weight of present ass )
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( Weight of ass at profile age )

= Profile age x ( 1.1 to 1.3)

This gives a factor 1.1 to 1.3 and thus actual age shall be higher by 10 to 30 %

However pics can be as old as 50 %
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merry christmas ! Dec 24, 2008 2:15 am
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Merry christmas to all the kff members.
I wish that this christmas ushers in all the prosperity and good health for you and your family.
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Kim the wonderful korean lady Dec 22, 2008 3:51 am
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I met a wonderful lady in seoul . Her name was kim.She was a bartender.We both liked each other and she had agreed to be my girl friend in seoul.She told me that she did not like the sexual part of it but i assured her that she would love it with me.Unfortunately we both were not destined to meet again.I wonder how she is but surely i wish for her happiness and well being.
Actually ur name reminded me about her.My relation with her was short but it was a relation of love , respect and mutual understanding.
Let me try and see if i can locate her number.
But i will definately meet her if i go 2 seoul and this time i will make sure that i make deep and intense physical and emotional love with her.
God bless her.
bt

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My New Land Lady - NEENA ! Dec 21, 2008 3:31 am
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Her name is neena !

She is a commercial aircraft pilot!

She is divorced and stays alone with her son who studies in 10th standard and is such a lovely boy!

The house often looks Gloomy - Cause a Broken Family!

Often there is only a huge dog and a maid around in the house.

Her parents are often at the home but i have rarely seen a smile on her face!

But surely my landlady is a very nice and a descent woman!I think she is sooo hot too.

I wish my landlady would learn to reconcile with the situation and learn to be happy!

There is also a secret desire to date her and befriend her and perhaps even more but noone except my wife know about this secret.I don't think i will ever dare to request her for a date.

But more impotant is the desre to see her happy and smiling with her family.
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Being A Bipolar ! A first hand account. Dec 19, 2008 5:21 am
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A recent blog by a member regarding serious mental illnesses and I thought to take courage to pen this down out from the secret most corners of my heart ;- a true and a first hand account of Being a Bipolar ;-

It means you love your parents but their son is dead for them.

It means you have a wife but she has never accepted you as a husband.

It means your true love for her once is taken as a deception.

It means that you have a job but u won’t be able to keep it for long.

It means you may have self esteem but only to be hurt repeatedly for your inability to meet even your basic needs.

It means you can enter into relationships but can’t hold them too long.

You may meet urn beloved daughter but may not always be able to afford a doll for her.

It means a flower without a scent .It means a life without any charm.

It means a deep and a severe pain but without a cry.U have to silently bear the pain but can’t express it.

It means your strong and frequent desire to escape life but an inability to do so as u can’t afford a pinch of cyanide.

It means a rotten life and that u die several times daily before you finally die and get rid of the hell of a life.

It means that u will be hated by one and all and no rational being shall hate the illness and no rational being shall ever sympathize for you.

Yes definitely this is what it feels like and what it means to be a bipolar ‒ a first hand account.

Can u feel the pain ?
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lest u all forget me Dec 14, 2008 3:21 am
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Hi !
I just dropprd in to say a Hi lest u all forget me.
love u all
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